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Every time I succeed, I get flooded with Every time I succeed, I get flooded with like like like like I need more. It's like I love like I need more. It's like I love like I need more. It's like I love affirmation. I love succeeding. I love affirmation. I love succeeding. I love affirmation. I love succeeding. I love doing things well. Um it makes me feel doing things well. Um it makes me feel doing things well. Um it makes me feel good. Every time I feed into that, every good. Every time I feed into that, every good. Every time I feed into that, every time I'm like, "Ooh, yeah, let's like time I'm like, "Ooh, yeah, let's like time I'm like, "Ooh, yeah, let's like only go for that more." Yeah, I hurt only go for that more." Yeah, I hurt only go for that more." Yeah, I hurt people. people. people. I lose that humility. I lose that humility. I lose that humility. I mean, I've had jobs where I delivered I mean, I've had jobs where I delivered I mean, I've had jobs where I delivered pizzas for weeks and weeks and weeks. pizzas for weeks and weeks and weeks. pizzas for weeks and weeks and weeks. And I'm like, And I'm like, And I'm like, "What am I doing?" Like I could do so "What am I doing?" Like I could do so "What am I doing?" Like I could do so much more than driving around delivering much more than driving around delivering much more than driving around delivering pizzas. And yet God like met me there. pizzas. And yet God like met me there. pizzas. And yet God like met me there. And so um And so um And so um yeah, I think yeah, I think yeah, I think Oh, what was your question? Oh, what was your question? Oh, what was your question? >> [laughter] >> This is the Crossroads Daily. No >> This is the Crossroads Daily. No experts, no perfect people, just honest experts, no perfect people, just honest experts, no perfect people, just honest conversations about what happens when conversations about what happens when conversations about what happens when the Bible shows up in real life. >> [music] >> [music] >> Hey, welcome to Crossroads Daily. My >> Hey, welcome to Crossroads Daily. My >> Hey, welcome to Crossroads Daily. My name is Caleb.

name is Caleb. name is Caleb. >> I'm Alex. >> I'm Alex. >> I'm Alex. >> I'm Nico. >> I'm Nico. >> I'm Nico. >> I'm [music] Kirsten. >> I'm [music] Kirsten. >> I'm [music] Kirsten. >> And we are in 1 Samuel chapter 11 today. >> And we are in 1 Samuel chapter 11 today. >> And we are in 1 Samuel chapter 11 today. We're following the early kingship of We're following the early kingship of We're following the early kingship of King Saul. If you know anything about King Saul. If you know anything about King Saul. If you know anything about him, this is when stuff's going well. him, this is when stuff's going well. him, this is when stuff's going well. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> So this is this is exciting to talk >> So this is this is exciting to talk >> So this is this is exciting to talk about. about. about. >> Saul. >> Saul. >> Saul. >> Later on it will not [laughter] go well, >> Later on it will not [laughter] go well, >> Later on it will not [laughter] go well, but right now things are good. So we're but right now things are good. So we're but right now things are good. So we're going to see what we can learn from going to see what we can learn from going to see what we can learn from this. In 1 Samuel chapter 11, some bad this. In 1 Samuel chapter 11, some bad this. In 1 Samuel chapter 11, some bad guys, the Ammonites, uh threaten to guys, the Ammonites, uh threaten to guys, the Ammonites, uh threaten to attack a city that belongs to Israel. attack a city that belongs to Israel. attack a city that belongs to Israel. And uh And uh And uh >> Those dogs. >> Those dogs. >> Those dogs. >> Saul goes out and takes care of >> Saul goes out and takes care of >> Saul goes out and takes care of business. business. business. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> He does this thing as the new king, >> He does this thing as the new king, >> He does this thing as the new king, leads the army, and uh conquers the bad leads the army, and uh conquers the bad leads the army, and uh conquers the bad guys. It's pretty great. guys. It's pretty great. guys. It's pretty great. He's actually acting like a good leader He's actually acting like a good leader He's actually acting like a good leader right now. Again, like I said, he he right now. Again, like I said, he he right now. Again, like I said, he he doesn't do that for much of his reign, doesn't do that for much of his reign, doesn't do that for much of his reign, but here at the beginning he does. but here at the beginning he does. but here at the beginning he does. Um there are lots of things we could Um there are lots of things we could Um there are lots of things we could call out from the chapter. It could be call out from the chapter. It could be call out from the chapter. It could be from the chapter or not. What what do from the chapter or not. What what do from the chapter or not. What what do you see among people that you consider you see among people that you consider you see among people that you consider good leaders? What are what are traits good leaders? What are what are traits good leaders? What are what are traits that you see or what's something that that you see or what's something that that you see or what's something that makes someone a good leader in your makes someone a good leader in your makes someone a good leader in your book? book? book? >> I learned this as I started leading >> I learned this as I started leading >> I learned this as I started leading people from my leaders that were helping people from my leaders that were helping people from my leaders that were helping coach me through that was letting people coach me through that was letting people coach me through that was letting people fail is actually really really fail is actually really really fail is actually really really important.

important. important. >> That's right. >> That's right. >> That's right. >> Um and really hard cuz right they like >> Um and really hard cuz right they like >> Um and really hard cuz right they like represent you as a leader. And so some represent you as a leader. And so some represent you as a leader. And so some of my best mentors, leaders, of my best mentors, leaders, of my best mentors, leaders, bosses, uh they let me go bosses, uh they let me go bosses, uh they let me go go for things even though they knew it go for things even though they knew it go for things even though they knew it was a bad idea. Like they could have was a bad idea. Like they could have was a bad idea. Like they could have been like I think that's a terrible been like I think that's a terrible been like I think that's a terrible idea. But they're like, "You know what? idea. But they're like, "You know what? idea. But they're like, "You know what? You should try that." And I'm like, You should try that." And I'm like, You should try that." And I'm like, "Really? Great." And then it goes "Really? Great." And then it goes "Really? Great." And then it goes horribly and I'm like, "Why didn't you horribly and I'm like, "Why didn't you horribly and I'm like, "Why didn't you stop me?" And they're like, "Well, how stop me?" And they're like, "Well, how stop me?" And they're like, "Well, how else would you have learned that that else would you have learned that that else would you have learned that that Like I could protect you, but until you Like I could protect you, but until you Like I could protect you, but until you fail on your own and learn how to fail on your own and learn how to fail on your own and learn how to navigate that and it's just healthy to navigate that and it's just healthy to navigate that and it's just healthy to like learn how to fail well. Um like like learn how to fail well. Um like like learn how to fail well. Um like that that's a quality that I've always that that's a quality that I've always that that's a quality that I've always like looked for and and was rare. Like like looked for and and was rare. Like like looked for and and was rare. Like I've had lots of leaders and um it's I've had lots of leaders and um it's I've had lots of leaders and um it's rare that they like encourage rare that they like encourage rare that they like encourage >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> That's right. >> That's right. >> That's right. >> healthy failing. >> healthy failing. >> healthy failing. >> Yeah, that's >> Yeah, that's >> Yeah, that's >> I'd add to that cuz with healthy failing >> I'd add to that cuz with healthy failing >> I'd add to that cuz with healthy failing it's like I also need to be covered in it's like I also need to be covered in it's like I also need to be covered in that as well. So covering me well in that as well. So covering me well in that as well. So covering me well in that process. Don't just let me fail and that process. Don't just let me fail and that process. Don't just let me fail and then like I told you that wouldn't go then like I told you that wouldn't go then like I told you that wouldn't go well. You know what I mean?

well. You know what I mean? well. You know what I mean? >> You'll learn your lesson. >> You'll learn your lesson. >> You'll learn your lesson. >> Exactly. Yeah, it's like how do you >> Exactly. Yeah, it's like how do you >> Exactly. Yeah, it's like how do you cover me in that process? And then even cover me in that process? And then even cover me in that process? And then even help me put the pieces together, you help me put the pieces together, you help me put the pieces together, you know? Um I know I had to do that as a know? Um I know I had to do that as a know? Um I know I had to do that as a life coach where there were just so many life coach where there were just so many life coach where there were just so many different rules that were in this book different rules that were in this book different rules that were in this book and you know, I didn't necessarily agree and you know, I didn't necessarily agree and you know, I didn't necessarily agree with all of the things that I had to um with all of the things that I had to um with all of the things that I had to um kind of uphold amongst the the men there kind of uphold amongst the the men there kind of uphold amongst the the men there and I would challenge some of these and I would challenge some of these and I would challenge some of these things and I would push back. And then I things and I would push back. And then I things and I would push back. And then I had a leader who would say, "Okay, well, had a leader who would say, "Okay, well, had a leader who would say, "Okay, well, how would you do this?" And then I would how would you do this?" And then I would how would you do this?" And then I would share how and they're like, "Okay, well, share how and they're like, "Okay, well, share how and they're like, "Okay, well, let's see." You know, and sometimes it let's see." You know, and sometimes it let's see." You know, and sometimes it actually did work and then sometimes I actually did work and then sometimes I actually did work and then sometimes I realized like, "Yeah, maybe we should realized like, "Yeah, maybe we should realized like, "Yeah, maybe we should just go back to the way just go back to the way just go back to the way >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> that you decided." But, the way that >> that you decided." But, the way that >> that you decided." But, the way that they covered me in that process and it they covered me in that process and it they covered me in that process and it wasn't cuz if their leadership or wasn't cuz if their leadership or wasn't cuz if their leadership or someone else in the organization caught someone else in the organization caught someone else in the organization caught wind of that, you know, they covered me wind of that, you know, they covered me wind of that, you know, they covered me in those scenarios. So, in those scenarios. So, in those scenarios. So, >> Even God even lets us do that sometimes. >> Even God even lets us do that sometimes. >> Even God even lets us do that sometimes. It's like, It's like, It's like, I'm just now seeing that. I'm just now seeing that. I'm just now seeing that. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> I was I was reading the other day. I >> I was I was reading the other day. I >> I was I was reading the other day. I don't know where I saw this and I don't don't know where I saw this and I don't don't know where I saw this and I don't know who said it. So, if if it was you, know who said it. So, if if it was you, know who said it. So, if if it was you, sorry. I'm going to steal your quote. sorry. I'm going to steal your quote. sorry. I'm going to steal your quote. >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> But, it was something to the effect of >> But, it was something to the effect of >> But, it was something to the effect of like, "When a good leader walks in the like, "When a good leader walks in the like, "When a good leader walks in the room, he makes his people feel safer, room, he makes his people feel safer, room, he makes his people feel safer, not stressed."

not stressed." not stressed." Safer, not stressed. And I was like, Safer, not stressed. And I was like, Safer, not stressed. And I was like, "Oh, dang. That's like really, really "Oh, dang. That's like really, really "Oh, dang. That's like really, really good." I can think of a lot of leaders good." I can think of a lot of leaders good." I can think of a lot of leaders walk in the room and then I'm like, "Oh, walk in the room and then I'm like, "Oh, walk in the room and then I'm like, "Oh, stressed. Did I do it good enough? Are stressed. Did I do it good enough? Are stressed. Did I do it good enough? Are they going to be mad?" they going to be mad?" they going to be mad?" Um it actually made me think of I grew Um it actually made me think of I grew Um it actually made me think of I grew up running cross country. I know I know up running cross country. I know I know up running cross country. I know I know that's that's, you know, a big surprise that's that's, you know, a big surprise that's that's, you know, a big surprise cuz I'm so bulky like a football player. cuz I'm so bulky like a football player. cuz I'm so bulky like a football player. [laughter] [laughter] [laughter] I was a runner and I was like, "You were I was a runner and I was like, "You were I was a runner and I was like, "You were a runner, right?" a runner, right?" a runner, right?" >> Nope. >> Nope. >> Nope. >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> She was She was hiding from running. >> She was She was hiding from running. >> She was She was hiding from running. >> Never could, never will. >> Never could, never will. >> Never could, never will. >> I was I was thinking about my coach who >> I was I was thinking about my coach who >> I was I was thinking about my coach who actually just uh actually just uh actually just uh he actually just passed like a month or he actually just passed like a month or he actually just passed like a month or so ago. so ago. so ago. Um he was long he was long retired, but Um he was long he was long retired, but Um he was long he was long retired, but coach coach Plummer, shout out. He coach coach Plummer, shout out. He coach coach Plummer, shout out. He He made us all feel safe. And I I don't He made us all feel safe. And I I don't He made us all feel safe. And I I don't know when you I don't care where you know when you I don't care where you know when you I don't care where you went to high school, cross country was went to high school, cross country was went to high school, cross country was not the sport people cared about, right? not the sport people cared about, right? not the sport people cared about, right? It was football or basketball or It was football or basketball or It was football or basketball or whatever. whatever. whatever. But, he he protected us in a way that But, he he protected us in a way that But, he he protected us in a way that like he got us what we needed. He He like he got us what we needed. He He like he got us what we needed. He He like, I don't know how we had like like, I don't know how we had like like, I don't know how we had like jumpsuits and like sweatshirts. Like, jumpsuits and like sweatshirts. Like, jumpsuits and like sweatshirts. Like, this sport didn't matter. Um this sport didn't matter. Um this sport didn't matter. Um he he made us feel safe. He He coached he he made us feel safe. He He coached he he made us feel safe. He He coached us well. He pushed us hard. It didn't us well. He pushed us hard. It didn't us well. He pushed us hard. It didn't mean that he like let us skate by, but mean that he like let us skate by, but mean that he like let us skate by, but we knew if it came to it, coach Plummer we knew if it came to it, coach Plummer we knew if it came to it, coach Plummer had our back, right? He was going to had our back, right? He was going to had our back, right? He was going to have the bus ready and even if nobody have the bus ready and even if nobody have the bus ready and even if nobody came to watch us run, he was going to be came to watch us run, he was going to be came to watch us run, he was going to be there, you know, like there, you know, like there, you know, like getting us to the finish line.

getting us to the finish line. getting us to the finish line. Um Um Um just like a fantastic, humble leader. just like a fantastic, humble leader. just like a fantastic, humble leader. They really had a huge impact on my They really had a huge impact on my They really had a huge impact on my life. life. life. >> Yeah. That's so good. >> Yeah. That's so good. >> Yeah. That's so good. >> Do you still have your cross country >> Do you still have your cross country >> Do you still have your cross country jumpsuit? jumpsuit? jumpsuit? >> I do, and the dumb thing is that it >> I do, and the dumb thing is that it >> I do, and the dumb thing is that it still fits. And I'm 41. I still fit. I still fits. And I'm 41. I still fit. I still fits. And I'm 41. I still fit. I haven't grown since high school, I haven't grown since high school, I haven't grown since high school, I guess. So, yeah. guess. So, yeah. guess. So, yeah. >> Um >> Um >> Um >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> I don't think that's a dumb thing. I >> I don't think that's a dumb thing. I >> I don't think that's a dumb thing. I mean mean mean >> I'm just I'm just a little person >> I'm just I'm just a little person >> I'm just I'm just a little person forever, I guess. I don't know. forever, I guess. I don't know. forever, I guess. I don't know. >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> Short king, that's what he said. >> Short king, that's what he said. >> Short king, that's what he said. >> But do you say >> But do you say >> But do you say >> Own it then, brother. >> Own it then, brother. >> Own it then, brother. >> That's right, man. Come [laughter] on, >> That's right, man. Come [laughter] on, >> That's right, man. Come [laughter] on, man. man. man. >> You mentioned um humble leader. I >> You mentioned um humble leader. I >> You mentioned um humble leader. I recently read a book on the team that recently read a book on the team that recently read a book on the team that I'm on at work called the ideal team I'm on at work called the ideal team I'm on at work called the ideal team player. player. player. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> And it >> And it >> And it says there's three qualities in a great says there's three qualities in a great says there's three qualities in a great team player on any team, and that's team player on any team, and that's team player on any team, and that's they're really humble, they're really humble, they're really humble, >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> they're hungry, like willing really >> they're hungry, like willing really >> they're hungry, like willing really driven, willing to do anything for the driven, willing to do anything for the driven, willing to do anything for the team, sacrificial, and they're smart. team, sacrificial, and they're smart. team, sacrificial, and they're smart. And not like educational book smarts, And not like educational book smarts, And not like educational book smarts, although I feel like that can be helpful although I feel like that can be helpful although I feel like that can be helpful sometimes in a team player or a leader, sometimes in a team player or a leader, sometimes in a team player or a leader, but they're people smart. Like they know but they're people smart. Like they know but they're people smart. Like they know how to emotionally navigate difficult how to emotionally navigate difficult how to emotionally navigate difficult situations and to handle conversations situations and to handle conversations situations and to handle conversations with people well. And I remember after with people well. And I remember after with people well. And I remember after reading the book, thinking through, reading the book, thinking through, reading the book, thinking through, okay, that makes a lot of sense for what okay, that makes a lot of sense for what okay, that makes a lot of sense for what an ideal team player is, like how I an ideal team player is, like how I an ideal team player is, like how I should show up to a team, how I should should show up to a team, how I should should show up to a team, how I should show up to whoever is leading me at the show up to whoever is leading me at the show up to whoever is leading me at the time, but also is that different than an time, but also is that different than an time, but also is that different than an ideal team leader ideal team leader ideal team leader >> Mhm.

>> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> or are they the same? And I actually >> or are they the same? And I actually >> or are they the same? And I actually in my opinion, from the examples of in my opinion, from the examples of in my opinion, from the examples of people who have led me, I prefer people who have led me, I prefer people who have led me, I prefer [clears throat] for the person that I'm [clears throat] for the person that I'm [clears throat] for the person that I'm being led by to be an ideal team player being led by to be an ideal team player being led by to be an ideal team player and cultivate that within a team. And and cultivate that within a team. And and cultivate that within a team. And interestingly, I actually feel like interestingly, I actually feel like interestingly, I actually feel like that's what Saul is doing. Like he's that's what Saul is doing. Like he's that's what Saul is doing. Like he's being an ideal team player. Like he's being an ideal team player. Like he's being an ideal team player. Like he's showing up as humble humble, hungry, and showing up as humble humble, hungry, and showing up as humble humble, hungry, and smart. And then when he fails at smart. And then when he fails at smart. And then when he fails at leadership later, it's like he's leadership later, it's like he's leadership later, it's like he's forgotten all of those things. And so I forgotten all of those things. And so I forgotten all of those things. And so I think that's really interesting of we're think that's really interesting of we're think that's really interesting of we're seeing his different or we will his seeing his different or we will his seeing his different or we will his different types of leadership. different types of leadership. different types of leadership. >> Yeah. Do we know how old he is? >> Yeah. Do we know how old he is? >> Yeah. Do we know how old he is? >> Uh I don't think we do, but he Well, >> Uh I don't think we do, but he Well, >> Uh I don't think we do, but he Well, actually we do. A couple chapters ago, actually we do. A couple chapters ago, actually we do. A couple chapters ago, I'm going to find it. I'm going to find it. I'm going to find it. >> Sorry, I'm just curious. >> Sorry, I'm just curious. >> Sorry, I'm just curious. >> Yeah, it says uh something to the effect >> Yeah, it says uh something to the effect >> Yeah, it says uh something to the effect of like he became king when he was 30 of like he became king when he was 30 of like he became king when he was 30 and he reigned 42 years. Actually, it's and he reigned 42 years. Actually, it's and he reigned 42 years. Actually, it's the next chapter. It's chapter 13. It's the next chapter. It's chapter 13. It's the next chapter. It's chapter 13. It's all 30 years old when he became king. He all 30 years old when he became king. He all 30 years old when he became king. He reigned 42 years.

reigned 42 years. reigned 42 years. >> Oh, wow. >> Oh, wow. >> Oh, wow. >> So, he was a a youngish guy. >> So, he was a a youngish guy. >> So, he was a a youngish guy. >> Yeah. Young professional, you know, 30s >> Yeah. Young professional, you know, 30s >> Yeah. Young professional, you know, 30s like that age where you're like, yeah, like that age where you're like, yeah, like that age where you're like, yeah, you're still sick. I'm doing it. I'm you're still sick. I'm doing it. I'm you're still sick. I'm doing it. I'm >> As if you're showing up to Y A as a >> As if you're showing up to Y A as a >> As if you're showing up to Y A as a king, right? king, right? king, right? >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> Like, yeah. >> Like, yeah. >> Like, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Yeah. So, Kirsten, to what you were >> Yeah. So, Kirsten, to what you were >> Yeah. So, Kirsten, to what you were talking about, you good leaders let you talking about, you good leaders let you talking about, you good leaders let you fail, right? Um fail, right? Um fail, right? Um why why why why do you think I think this is true. why do you think I think this is true. why do you think I think this is true. Tell me if I'm wrong. I think that Tell me if I'm wrong. I think that Tell me if I'm wrong. I think that success can be even more dangerous to success can be even more dangerous to success can be even more dangerous to your development than failure. your development than failure. your development than failure. Do you think that's true, and why do you Do you think that's true, and why do you Do you think that's true, and why do you think that is? think that is? think that is? >> Oh, yeah. I have pride >> Oh, yeah. I have pride >> Oh, yeah. I have pride issues. issues. issues. Kirsten has pride issues. Every time I Kirsten has pride issues. Every time I Kirsten has pride issues. Every time I succeed, I don't know what it is about succeed, I don't know what it is about succeed, I don't know what it is about like my history or like how I'm made or like my history or like how I'm made or like my history or like how I'm made or my sin or my sin or my sin or what it is, but I get flooded with like what it is, but I get flooded with like what it is, but I get flooded with like like I need more. Like it's like I love like I need more. Like it's like I love like I need more. Like it's like I love affirmation. I love succeeding. I love affirmation. I love succeeding. I love affirmation. I love succeeding. I love doing things well. Um it makes me feel doing things well. Um it makes me feel doing things well. Um it makes me feel good. And every time it like good. And every time it like good. And every time it like Every time I feed into that, every time Every time I feed into that, every time Every time I feed into that, every time I'm like, "Ooh, yeah, let's like only go I'm like, "Ooh, yeah, let's like only go I'm like, "Ooh, yeah, let's like only go for that more."

for that more." for that more." >> Mhm. Yeah. >> Mhm. Yeah. >> Mhm. Yeah. >> I hurt people. >> I hurt people. >> I hurt people. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> I lose that humility. >> I lose that humility. >> I lose that humility. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> I forget where I've come from. You know? >> I forget where I've come from. You know? >> I forget where I've come from. You know? >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Um >> Um >> Um I mean, I've had jobs where I delivered I mean, I've had jobs where I delivered I mean, I've had jobs where I delivered pizzas for weeks and weeks and weeks. pizzas for weeks and weeks and weeks. pizzas for weeks and weeks and weeks. And I'm like, And I'm like, And I'm like, "What am I doing?" Like, I could do so "What am I doing?" Like, I could do so "What am I doing?" Like, I could do so much more than driving around delivering much more than driving around delivering much more than driving around delivering pizzas. And yet, God like met me there. pizzas. And yet, God like met me there. pizzas. And yet, God like met me there. And so, um And so, um And so, um yeah, I think yeah, I think yeah, I think Oh, what was your question? Oh, what was your question? Oh, what was your question? >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> Why >> Why >> Why can't success be more dangerous than can't success be more dangerous than can't success be more dangerous than failure? failure? failure? >> That I don't know the why. I wish I did, >> That I don't know the why. I wish I did, >> That I don't know the why. I wish I did, but I just know from experience that it but I just know from experience that it but I just know from experience that it is a horrible thing in my life. So, if is a horrible thing in my life. So, if is a horrible thing in my life. So, if you guys know a solution, I'm all ears you guys know a solution, I'm all ears you guys know a solution, I'm all ears cuz feel like I just got to figure it cuz feel like I just got to figure it cuz feel like I just got to figure it out every time. out every time. out every time. >> I won't say solution, but I definitely >> I won't say solution, but I definitely >> I won't say solution, but I definitely have had those struggles. It's I think I have had those struggles. It's I think I have had those struggles. It's I think I guess because like the success shines guess because like the success shines guess because like the success shines the light on you a bit. And we can the light on you a bit. And we can the light on you a bit. And we can either be vessels for that, you know, either be vessels for that, you know, either be vessels for that, you know, glory to go to God, or we can be glory to go to God, or we can be glory to go to God, or we can be hoarders of that. And very similar to, hoarders of that. And very similar to, hoarders of that. And very similar to, you know, Satan and and having, you you know, Satan and and having, you you know, Satan and and having, you know, know, know, and I think at times like I I realized and I think at times like I I realized and I think at times like I I realized that like, "Wow, God, I'm hoarding your that like, "Wow, God, I'm hoarding your that like, "Wow, God, I'm hoarding your glory."

glory." glory." The language I believe he's giving me The language I believe he's giving me The language I believe he's giving me even at times is like, "Lord, I can feel even at times is like, "Lord, I can feel even at times is like, "Lord, I can feel the contention in my heart for your the contention in my heart for your the contention in my heart for your glory." And for me, I think that like glory." And for me, I think that like glory." And for me, I think that like I'll I'll I'll feel the contention in my I'll I'll I'll feel the contention in my I'll I'll I'll feel the contention in my heart and then I'll also feel the weight heart and then I'll also feel the weight heart and then I'll also feel the weight of it. So, even when I find myself of it. So, even when I find myself of it. So, even when I find myself operating in pride, I'm constantly operating in pride, I'm constantly operating in pride, I'm constantly waiting for my name to be called. I'm waiting for my name to be called. I'm waiting for my name to be called. I'm seeking validation, right? The things in seeking validation, right? The things in seeking validation, right? The things in the in in everything that I'm doing, the in in everything that I'm doing, the in in everything that I'm doing, like my motives begin to shift. So, even like my motives begin to shift. So, even like my motives begin to shift. So, even the things that I'm doing, it's not so the things that I'm doing, it's not so the things that I'm doing, it's not so much spirit-led. It's, you know, it can much spirit-led. It's, you know, it can much spirit-led. It's, you know, it can I can find myself doing a thing and even I can find myself doing a thing and even I can find myself doing a thing and even if it starts out good, somewhere creeps if it starts out good, somewhere creeps if it starts out good, somewhere creeps in like, now how do I get recognized for in like, now how do I get recognized for in like, now how do I get recognized for this? Or do they know I said this, you this? Or do they know I said this, you this? Or do they know I said this, you know? And know? And know? And >> Yeah. I hate it. I literally have prayed >> Yeah. I hate it. I literally have prayed >> Yeah. I hate it. I literally have prayed to God like Lord, why is I hate this to God like Lord, why is I hate this to God like Lord, why is I hate this thing in my heart? Which is like more thing in my heart? Which is like more thing in my heart? Which is like more and more and more and more taking me to this place of like when it taking me to this place of like when it taking me to this place of like when it talks about in Psalm 139, search my talks about in Psalm 139, search my talks about in Psalm 139, search my heart oh Lord. heart oh Lord. heart oh Lord. >> I pray that all the time. >> I pray that all the time. >> I pray that all the time. >> Like you don't even know some of the >> Like you don't even know some of the >> Like you don't even know some of the things hidden in the crevices of your things hidden in the crevices of your things hidden in the crevices of your heart. And sometimes success reveals heart. And sometimes success reveals heart. And sometimes success reveals that, man. And yeah, so.

that, man. And yeah, so. that, man. And yeah, so. >> I think part of what you're saying is >> I think part of what you're saying is >> I think part of what you're saying is like like like when when you have that success and when when when you have that success and when when when you have that success and when you have that contention in your heart, you have that contention in your heart, you have that contention in your heart, I think it's I think it's I think it's because we feel like oh, I can do this because we feel like oh, I can do this because we feel like oh, I can do this on my own. I succeeded. So even if it's on my own. I succeeded. So even if it's on my own. I succeeded. So even if it's something that God made happen for us, something that God made happen for us, something that God made happen for us, at least for me I'm like ah at least for me I'm like ah at least for me I'm like ah got this and then I should get the got this and then I should get the got this and then I should get the credit for it. credit for it. credit for it. >> [clears throat] >> [clears throat] >> [clears throat] >> Just to dig in a little deeper on that, >> Just to dig in a little deeper on that, >> Just to dig in a little deeper on that, how has God revealed that to you? how has God revealed that to you? how has God revealed that to you? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah, what comes to mind? Um really good Yeah, what comes to mind? Um really good Yeah, what comes to mind? Um really good question. I'm reminded of a time where I question. I'm reminded of a time where I question. I'm reminded of a time where I This is when I was pursuing different This is when I was pursuing different This is when I was pursuing different business. Um business. Um business. Um when I had some business pursuits and I when I had some business pursuits and I when I had some business pursuits and I was and I would talk to God about, you was and I would talk to God about, you was and I would talk to God about, you know, I was talking to God about the know, I was talking to God about the know, I was talking to God about the things that that we were doing. It was things that that we were doing. It was things that that we were doing. It was in logistics. And just had a heart I in logistics. And just had a heart I in logistics. And just had a heart I really wanted this thing to be really wanted this thing to be really wanted this thing to be successful. I found favor in some of the successful. I found favor in some of the successful. I found favor in some of the conversations and things that I was conversations and things that I was conversations and things that I was having with different customers and having with different customers and having with different customers and things and I would just I was like things and I would just I was like things and I would just I was like running after this thing hard. And I was running after this thing hard. And I was running after this thing hard. And I was having a conversation with someone and having a conversation with someone and having a conversation with someone and they were just going through a really they were just going through a really they were just going through a really tough time like financially and tough time like financially and tough time like financially and just things that they were dealing with just things that they were dealing with just things that they were dealing with and I really felt like a burden in my and I really felt like a burden in my and I really felt like a burden in my heart to help them and I couldn't and I heart to help them and I couldn't and I heart to help them and I couldn't and I was so frustrated and I remember talking was so frustrated and I remember talking was so frustrated and I remember talking to God and saying see God, this is why to God and saying see God, this is why to God and saying see God, this is why I like this is my why behind wanting to I like this is my why behind wanting to I like this is my why behind wanting to be successful and and and and have a be successful and and and and have a be successful and and and and have a business and be This is my why right business and be This is my why right business and be This is my why right here.

here. here. And I'm I was fully convinced like that And I'm I was fully convinced like that And I'm I was fully convinced like that was my why like that was a big chunk of was my why like that was a big chunk of was my why like that was a big chunk of my why. And the Holy Spirit said my why. And the Holy Spirit said my why. And the Holy Spirit said something to me in that moment. And he something to me in that moment. And he something to me in that moment. And he said um okay Demiko, said um okay Demiko, said um okay Demiko, what if I do it what if I do it what if I do it differently? differently? differently? What if I help them? What if I bless What if I help them? What if I bless What if I help them? What if I bless them them them differently in a way that doesn't differently in a way that doesn't differently in a way that doesn't require you to be successful or for you require you to be successful or for you require you to be successful or for you to be the one that does the thing? to be the one that does the thing? to be the one that does the thing? And in that moment I was like, And in that moment I was like, And in that moment I was like, well why would you do it that way? well why would you do it that way? well why would you do it that way? >> [laughter] >> But I can do it. >> But I can do it. >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> [laughter] >> And what revealed to me is like, do you >> And what revealed to me is like, do you >> And what revealed to me is like, do you still have that same passion or burn for still have that same passion or burn for still have that same passion or burn for this if it doesn't require you to be in this if it doesn't require you to be in this if it doesn't require you to be in this seat of success? And it was like, this seat of success? And it was like, this seat of success? And it was like, wow. So even in this right now, as wow. So even in this right now, as wow. So even in this right now, as convicted as I feel and passionate as I convicted as I feel and passionate as I convicted as I feel and passionate as I feel about helping this person, it's feel about helping this person, it's feel about helping this person, it's still about me. still about me. still about me. It is still about me. And I did not It is still about me. And I did not It is still about me. And I did not realize it until that moment. I'm like, realize it until that moment. I'm like, realize it until that moment. I'm like, oh my my heart is so deceitfully wicked. oh my my heart is so deceitfully wicked. oh my my heart is so deceitfully wicked. I would have never realized that because I would have never realized that because I would have never realized that because I was so convinced that my why was to I was so convinced that my why was to I was so convinced that my why was to help people. And then he revealed that help people. And then he revealed that help people. And then he revealed that to me. And yeah, that's that's yeah.

to me. And yeah, that's that's yeah. to me. And yeah, that's that's yeah. >> It's so it is so easy to make your life >> It's so it is so easy to make your life >> It's so it is so easy to make your life about you even in your wins. about you even in your wins. about you even in your wins. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> It's so easy to to make it about you. So >> It's so easy to to make it about you. So >> It's so easy to to make it about you. So my challenge for you today my challenge for you today my challenge for you today is where are you winning? is where are you winning? is where are you winning? >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> You're you're winning somewhere. I know >> You're you're winning somewhere. I know >> You're you're winning somewhere. I know it's easy to look at the losses. Let's it's easy to look at the losses. Let's it's easy to look at the losses. Let's just throw them in our back pocket for a just throw them in our back pocket for a just throw them in our back pocket for a second. You're winning somewhere even if second. You're winning somewhere even if second. You're winning somewhere even if even if it's just you got up today and even if it's just you got up today and even if it's just you got up today and you watch this podcast. Take a second you watch this podcast. Take a second you watch this podcast. Take a second and just thank God for that. Thank God and just thank God for that. Thank God and just thank God for that. Thank God for a new day, for an opportunity, for a for a new day, for an opportunity, for a for a new day, for an opportunity, for a phone or a computer or a tablet where phone or a computer or a tablet where phone or a computer or a tablet where you can watch this podcast. And whatever you can watch this podcast. And whatever you can watch this podcast. And whatever else comes to mind, give some honor, else comes to mind, give some honor, else comes to mind, give some honor, some glory, some gratitude back to God. some glory, some gratitude back to God. some glory, some gratitude back to God. And I think it'll shift your day today. And I think it'll shift your day today. And I think it'll shift your day today. We'll see you next time.